*Blue Roses turned Black*
  Hell | The Fake Sound of Progress | Maybe Memories | Junkie | Freaking out (book) | Solitare Unraveling | 10 dead fingers | Breaking Me down | The Used | Death becomes her | Sharp objects through my heart  

"What is the point of living if you can' t feel alive...?"
This last few days have been awful i am sitting right here just crying because my life is over! I try to remember the good times but few come to me. Then i think of all the times that i have been alone i am so depressed noone ever expected me too so no one cares but at this moment i am contaplating suicide. I have had an on-going battle with suicide and self-mutalation for almost 4 years now and i can't take it anymore!!! i can't take living this way. I am tired of lying being someone i am not just so i won't have to go to my counsler. but i am here and this is me a girl that just wants to die. I used to be such a fun life-loving girl now it seems as though life itself as drained the fun out of it.. They say it will get better... oh yeah when the fuck will it get better? prolly when i am dead i guessing.its not U i am dying for ... it is because of you and all the shit that i have endured so please do me a favor and just take a look a yourself and see who you have become take a deep look..Look past all the hidden fears and all that pride and look in your soul.



  *Jeff's poetry*
The Demon in my View

(Jeff Megenhardt)



My life was painted in pain, deceit, & death

Which gives me the power to wallow for hours

Inside my somber memories

Oh, how I despised the anguish

Of loving someone who would never return my affection

As I sit inside my tomb shrouded by gloom

Excluding the light coming from inside my broken heart

But the flame is slowly dying

And my sorrow is swiftly flying away

How easy it was to fall in love

Hence now it’s over

Nevertheless, I cannot find the benevolence in my heart

To forgive someone who wouldst lie about thou adoration

Why would she hoodwink the one who worships her like a dark Deity?

She was the one who made my life worth while

But now there’s not even a thread

To bind me to this life I once lead



She is the demon in my view



Thus I endeavor to find someone to ameliorate me

But there is no one in this horrific nightmare

And now I feel my life slipping from my grasp

I slit my wrists, my blood pours out

My existence now before me

The telling of my depraved & glowering story

Now I’ve died before my time

But this place I must dwell in called “Purgatory�

Is worse than any torment from Hell

For now I have to watch my beloved go through her life

And watch her fuck, which cleaves my heart

And I greatly spurn those few who make her cunt twitch against their kiss

Dost thou not remember my kiss?

Or how thou felt when I used my tongue and powerful lungs to please thee

Now I seek the Devil to make an unholy deal

So I can walk the mortal realm but with a ravenous longing for blood

So I can feed on those who have incensed me

And punish my love for deceiving me

But now all odium I have is abhorrence for myself

For I have awakened from the departed as a lifeless blood-thirsty fiend

And those less formidable than I, venerate me

But I am filled with sorrow for I can never love again

And for this reason, I finally realize that...



I am the Demon in My View

*Freddy's Poetry*
Love of A Lifetime


Knowing eachother this long, is probably for the best

Because of all the guys there are, I know you better than the rest

And we can't regret all the years we might have lost

Being together in the end, is truly worth the cost
Now look into me deeply with your beautiful blue eyes

And know that I'm being honest, and I won't tell you any lies

When I was with someone else, that I knew wasn't you

You'd look at me and smile, the way you always do

And it'd take me away to thoughts of you and I

Holdin you close to me, and feelin my heart sigh

Believe me my whole life you've always been my crush
Well if its lasted all this time, then we truly don't have to rush

As long as I can remember, I prayed that we would someday be together

And if you would be with me, nothing could be better






SELFISH
I can’t believe you left us here Carrying on by ourselves without you here You left your sons, your mother too What were you thinking, what are they suppose to do Such a life as yours is such a life to waste The resentment towards you leaves a bitter taste I can’t explain the kind of hate I feel Emotions are overflowing, and they’re all much too real Just because your life was not what you wanted it to be You quit on yourself… you quit on me And now we mourn you, every eye is wet You took your life without one regret Since your death, you can’t imagine how life has been And if you were alive, I’d kill you again

"Somethings aren't worth living for"
Life sucks and it really isnt worth it thats my theory on life!

The Angel of Death





The PowerGoth Girls